May 27, 2013

How Writing Heals




There are so many things in my head that I want to write about that I have not really come to understand. They are over my head floating like bubbles and I just have to stretch out my hand to pop them open one by one.

These things that I want to write are but a shadow and a feeling, and I am afraid if I begin to write about them shadows I would never be able to discern the true form. The unfinished thoughts in my head; some of them deliberately suppressed, and many I was not able to follow mainly because I have no will and courage to explore.

I want to write important and meaningful topics but I am afraid I maybe wrong in a lot of things, or that, if I get back to them after many days, I will find them meaningless to me.

I want to write about this great silence in me, this chasm of ignorance. The feeling of for all I know I know nothing. And so what rights have I to say when what I say does not edify?

This overwhelms me.

This is then I get back to Sarah Kay (my fave poet as of the moment). She talks about poetry at age 14, what do you know at 14? She said, it doesn't matter, write about being 14 - what it feels like.


I love that wisdom. I feel like, she's saying, it’s okay, write about not knowing - at age 25 and not knowing! It makes me laugh but it makes me feel fine. So this is what it feels like today and I'm writing about it and I am starting to feel good already.

May 7, 2013

One Morning with a Hummingbird

I saw a hummingbird this morning
while brushing my teeth,
looking outside.

He was suspended in the air
like film in slow motion.
His little body defying gravity
held my attention.
For a while I thought,
everything is in motion
living, living,
moving, moving,
yet still...so still.

This is the secret,
birds knew it.

May 5, 2013

I Am Worthy

Have you ever felt tenderness so undeserved it kills you?
Like you heart's breaking slowly,
but breaking beautifully.
The long numbing journey of the heart
suddenly awakened to a beat,
healing many ills.

It makes me wonder...
How have I ever become
worth this much?

 
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