Wanting to be more is a dreadful feeling. It stretches you like a rubber bond. Life has been awfully stagnant for me and there is this constant desire to want more out of life. Like be more mature, be more caring, be more responsible, laugh more, enjoy life more, live more, serve more, be holy, be beautiful, be more like Jesus...and all the more's i could think of to be. I have gone out to search on how to resolve this. Like read self help books(ive read a lot!) - really you can learn from this but i tell you, all those ideas the authors gave will all the more stretch you to do this and do that. You have not even began your work and your already tired. That's what ideas can do. Small change i shall say. If you are not careful you will be fully loaded and will not even be able to understand yourself why you are not satisfied with what you do. You have set a standard for yourself without even conscious about it. Now not hitting those standards will make you feel dissatisfied. That's what reading ideas can do. It slowly creeps on your skin and then on your brain. Oh the things you read. I hope we can have some recycle bins in our minds so we can throw them out or better yet shift+delete(that's how to permanently delete a file folks! ) all the things we have downloaded in there. This is the reason why sometimes i don't get myself. Wanting to be more is a good thing but it hides under a cloud of doubts. If you don't have the sun to shine through it i tell you- you can get lost with the overwhelming sensation of doubts and doubts and doubts. As what St Paul says "I do not understand what I do. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.." We are all dealing here with oldest and the newest = Time. Time is what you have but do not own and time as they say and i agree is precious. What you do with it will determine on who you will become.
To whoever or whatever the name of the force/forces(for they are too strong for me) maybe that brings about the stretch I am utterly grateful. For you bring out the true me and you bring out the "who" i decide to be.
If you are wondering what i have learned from all of this St Paul again can explain(isn't it wonderful to find out that saints do experience what we are going through?)
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
and Amen! i say to that! Thank you Lord for you are my hope. On you i shall i put my trust. My rock and my salvation. My Jesus Christ, my God and my Lord. Rule my life. - You know in the end all i want, all i really want is just to please you.
It's in the little things. You find joy and happiness! -me
And so my sister and I wanted to start the day right. And what better to do than go shopping? Yea i know. It just feels good to buy. It's time to buy slippers! And look at what we found.
Looks fun right?
We found them inside Save More Market. I dont know what they are called but their brand name is Dopie. Ya dope. I know the original is so much more expensive, like 1 original =10 dopie's. Are you kidding me?
These one felt good and they are so comfy so all in all it's a good buy. yehey! hooray for good buys!
The black one is mine :)
Look at the little boy!
I bought one for mys sister, 1 for my mom, 1 for me and 1 extra. The extra one is supposed to be for my cousin but it did not fit her. Too bad. :( Im keeping it and ill be looking out for a lucky cinderella. yay!
