Sep 27, 2012

I Feel Like I'm in a Trance so Let's Try Poetry


Yes love, poetry  :)

I just woke up from my sleep. And I'm feeling so good.

I feel like I'm in a trance so I quickly wrote some poems. Poetry my love.

My poems have no title but you are in for a treat so come and read along.

That's me! Sometimes id go crazy and id go along walking just like that in the house. My family's a little weird so they dont mind. HAHA.


Your words I've listen to
Till I fell asleep
I woke up feeling so good
I keep thinking 
Of you

I am here and you are near
Life is about this
I know
Yes life is you and me

***

No clinging 
I am now 
Learning
Contentment is
Peace
You could 
Not ask 
For happiness
If you
Are content

***

I am so at peace
It feels like
I have been sleeping
In your arms
And you smiling
Down looking
At me.

***
I feel like Rumi
I think I’m feeling what
Rumi is feeling
Towards you
So my beloved
I'd wrote you 
A poem now
See?
You
Are poetry

***

You,
Yes 
You are
The great
I am
Enfolding
Me.

***

In this silence 
I feel you
Your presence
Is beautiful to see
It makes me
Want to
Read a 
Book
To go grab
 A pen
And write.
You are 
So beautiful
You make me
Do my favorite
Things

***

Words like abc
qrst
xyz
Words like
U
And 
I.
Yes words.


***

Something wants to get out
Whatever it is 
I'd hope it travels to my pen
And on this piece of paper
That something is very clever
He comes only when I am at peace.
So listen now
Listen well.
Smile like crazy
Once you’re finished
Reading the 
End.

***

The pimple
Right at the middle
Of my forehead
Between my eyebrows
You planted them
Didn’t you?


Sep 19, 2012

He Wishes for the Cloths of Heaven by William Butler Yeats

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

~William Butler Yeats 


This made me speechless and then before i can think of anything i uttered "Ahhhhhhhh".


Sep 14, 2012

Conversation with God

I can get so still and pray with my pen and notebook. I ask questions and God answers. I jot them down.

Hope you'll be very blessed!  :)

What do you want me to do with my life Father?

 I want you to know me and to learn from me. To never worry of what tomorrow will bring because you know in your heart that I hold the future in my hands. And yes I do orchestrate events in your life. I know you. I want you to come to a state that you will not worry about the future anymore because you know that for a fact.

How can I trust you more? How can I abandon myself in your care? Teach me to learn to trust you.

Read the bible and give sacrifice of praise and blessings every day. Yes. A sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving, every single day, every single moment think of me. That's how you will slowly learn to trust me and abandon all your cares in me.

How will I be able be friends with Wisdom? Because in the bible it says she comes seeking for people worthy of her in the morning gates. How will I be able to befriend her?

Of course you know that I am the giver of wisdom. So first ask it of me. And then keep yourself from speaking lies.

You mean I’ll always be truthful to myself and others? Like speak what is in my heart?
Yes. Speak gently...

How would I be able to speak gently? Like if in my heart I know that it would hurt people if I tell the truth, or if someone would ask for my opinion and I would just speak from my heart.

That is why you need to mold your heart first to become like mine. That is why the Holy Spirit is with you. He will teach you what to say if you desire to tell the truth and to live life in truth. It will set you free.

Father how would I be able to ask assistance from the Holy Spirit? 

Ask.. Sheena Always ask. He is willing to help. Ask and give the sacrifice of thanksgiving so that your heart will be molded to become like mine. And then you'll come to know me more and that id be your friend. I am your friend now but just like in friendship we need communication to make it deeper. Char. (Hehe. Naa naka pachar char Amahan ha.)

xxx


Thank you Lord. I praise. I bless your holy name. I love you Father. Thank you so much for loving us. Thank you. Thank you Father. Praise be to you Amahan. I praise you and I bless you. Thank you for showing me the way to life.

Thank you so much. Thank you for speaking to me. And thank you for granting me access to you. I can always call you and you hear me all the time. Thank you. I give you thanks, I adore you Father I bless you. Thank you so much. Praise and glory and honor are yours Father dear forever and ever in Jesus Name. Amen! Thank you.


Sep 12, 2012

Whole and Total Practice

This is just something i read while seeking for ideas. I love ideas. And because i agree to what it said I want to post it here so i can always look at it. May you feel the wisdom and truth while reading it.

Whole and Total Practice
By Jack Kornfield, Living Dharma
The precepts are enormously powerful. For instance, not to tell an untruth in any circumstance, alone could be one's whole and total practice. With regard to other beings, it means not misrepresenting anything, being totally mindful and aware of just what is being said and making it as direct and clear a reflection of the truth as one can perceive.... To carry this precept even further, if one practices the precept of truthfulness within oneself as well, not fooling oneself, not trying to look at things other than as they really are, seeing things mindfully, with full consciousness and awareness, this one precept becomes the whole and entire practice of Buddhism. Not only of Buddhism, but in fact of all religions. As soon as one becomes totally honest, automatically the wisdom of unselfishness arises. One becomes loving in a natural way because one is no longer trying to get or be something other than what is already true. --Jack Kornfield, Living Dharma

Sep 5, 2012

Paper Towns by John Green book review

Paper Towns


What can i say? I love this book. I love the adventure. I love how the words are so simple to read. I love how beautifully it was written. And surprisingly, I love how sad it was. There were parts were i suddenly just tear up. Some things written in there are just so painful. Like cracks and all. I love Quentin and his group of friends and I love how they did not left Quentin to search for Margo; the love of his life. Although the story was about a person who got depressed and run away, it was also about the beauty of a pursuing love, and the beauty of friendship and acceptance. I couldn't recommend it enough so read it. And you'll find Whitman's Leaves of Grass partly discussed in there too. If you love him that would be a bonus. lol.

Some favorite parts:


"We got on our bikes and I let her go in front of me because I was crying and didn’t want her to see." - this was on the first chapter and it just melts me.


“Maybe all the strings inside him broke,”


"I could never stop thinking that maybe she loved mysteries so much that she became one."


"It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world." - relate much!


“I mean, you are a hero, do you realize that? They give out medals for this stuff.” - the fun part!


“Because it’s kind of great, being an idea that everybody likes. But I could never be the idea to myself, not all the way. And Agloe is a place where a paper creation became real. A dot on the map became a real place, more real than the people who created the dot could ever have imagined. I thought maybe the paper cutout of a girl could start becoming real here also. And it seemed like a way to tell that paper girl who cared about popularity and clothes and everything else: ‘You are going to the paper towns. And you are never coming back.’”


“‘But when it came right down to it, the skin of my wrist looked so white and defenseless that I couldn’t do it. It was as if what I wanted to kill wasn’t in that skin or the thin blue pulse that jumped under my thumb, but somewhere else, deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get at.’” - where Margo reads the Bell Jar




I may have highlighted a lot of things in this book but i couldn't help it. :)




Sep 4, 2012

Concerning Coffee

coffee aroma
My cup of coffee on MS Paint ;)

The taste of coffee in my mouth gives me a sense of comfort. It feels like home. It tastes like home and it makes me feel in tune with everything. I am amazed at how the right amount of coffee can make you feel like this. You just know that everything is alright with the world. The way the coffee goes down to your throat and into your lungs to your soul. It takes you somewhere beyond. Beyond fears and worries and beyond you. The sweetness, the aroma, and the "coffeeness" of it all takes me trans-like between here and now and eternity.  For the first time i understand why people get addicted. Caffeine is a here and now comfort.


P.S. I'm afraid i may have sounded a little high. But don't worry. I am high on love. haha.

Sep 3, 2012

Letting Go

Last night, I went out for a walk to get my thoughts off things that are bothering me at the moment.

Like:  Would I be able to have another job after resigning with my current job?
 Would I ace interviews?

 I want to let go of my fears concerning future work, concerning my future that is.

And I walked and walked till I felt sweat over my back and face. I walked with my fears and lay them down one by one.

I found myself then inside Nazareno Church. And that's when I know that the path to life is letting go, and that in every corner of the way a banner is hang saying, NO CLINGING!

 And I learned then to let go and let God. It sounds cliché and old but it is true.
Let go and let God because he knows best and that He holds our future.

 No fear in that. So no clinging.


Now I feel free and I feel ready. I don't know why but I am excited. Letting go and letting God makes you feel excited; you just don't know what will happen next but you know that it would be for your best, for your very best.


"In the path of our happiness shall we find the learning for which we have chosen this lifetime." - Richard Bach

NO CLINGING!

Posting some pictures of myself. :)
That's me at the center with my friends. We are at Eco Village Malasag having some holiday escapade.


 
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