If You Dont Plow The Earth of Yourself

If you don’t plow the earth, it’s going to get so hard nothing grows in it. You just plow the earth of yourself. You just get moving. And even don’t ask exactly what’s going to happen. You allow yourself to move around, and you will see the benefit.  -Rumi

Haha. That was when i was trying to build fire to cook and then i saw chicks coming out like woahhh! haha.
Anyway what I'm trying to say is that our hearts and minds are like gardens. We have to cultivate it if we want to grow as loving and gentle individuals. Because if we don't plow the earth of our selves nothing will ever grow in it. Like beautiful flowers and fruits of whatever kind. So we have to plow and cultivate and get all the weeds out. Weeds like self hatred, anger, and malice. yayay! haha.

Spell

I love this song and Marie Digby is just perfect.

Marie Diby

Spotlight's shining brightly
On my face
I can't see a thing
And yet I feel you , looking my way
Empty stage
With nothing but this girl
Singing this simple melody
And wearing her heart on her sleeve
And right now...

I have you
For a moment I can tell I've got you
Cause your lips don't move
And something is happening
Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you.

Beauty emanates from every word that you say
They capture the deepest thoughts
In the purest and simplest of ways
But you see
I'm not that graceful like you
Nor am I as eloquent
But just a simple melody
Can change the way that you see me
And right now..I have you

For a moment I can tell I've got you
Cause your lips don't move
And something is happening
Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you..

All my life I stumble
But up here I am just perfect
Perfect as i'll ever be...

In Search of A Good Book; SONNET 18 by William Shakespeare

Eternal Summer. Those are beautiful words. 

And even though it's already September

Sometimes mornings are like summer: golden and green.

It rains in the afternoon though. 

I’ve been jumping from one book to another

Hoping to get myself immersed 

But nothing really holds my attention. 

I try to read aloud to slow me down.

Doesnt last long. It doesnt last that long.

I want a book to experience. 

A story that will transcend my reality

And hold me transfixed even for a day.

Like a drug -like flying high.

So will you recommend me a book? 

Cause im reading a lot of poems. 

--In Search of A Good Book, Tabulyogang

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Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? 

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date: 

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimm'd; 

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade

Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;

Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou growest: 

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

 

--SONNET 18 by William Shakespeare

When it Feels Like You Are Spiritually Insecure

When it feels like you are insecure with your spiritual friends. I just don’t understand why i feel like i don’t live up to their expectations. Am i unconsciously comparing myself? Holier than thou ? Because really, when it comes to spiritual path, everything is personal. It cannot be compared. I should know that. Why do i feel like i am constantly being judged? Or is it me judging myself. I am not praying enough. I am not holy enough. I don’t serve enough. I am always absent during prayer meetings. Or is it my conscience telling me to do the things i am suppose to do. Make more time for God! Since when did i start to feel so small around spiritual people?

 I feel like my two sisters in Christ are so holy and always there to serve. It makes me feel like i will not be able to live up to their expectations when I am around them. And at the same time i don’t want to be like them. I feel like they are so serious for my taste. And i just want to enjoy life and at the same time enjoy God. Why does it always have to involve suffering and sacrifice? Why do people like suffering? Why does sacrifice always equates to being holy? I don’t think that when you feel you don’t want to do a certain thing and do it anyway because it’s it looks like the right thing to do, but you feel like this sucks. It takes the joy away. But you don’t want to feel guilty afterwards for not doing it. Why can’t people be true to themselves like i don’t want to do it because. Just because and  I dont feel like explaining why.

 Are people naturally good or bad? It is just that, when i dont enjoy doing a thing why would i do it? just to please the person? i mean? you know. we are the most double minded creation in the universe because we feel one thing and do another. We say one thing but in our hearts is another thing. What would happen if we become one with our feelings? To do what we want to do. And not do what we don’t want to do. And to say what we mean to say. What would happen? I guess there would be a lot of conflict at first, but i think when you become one with your actions and feelings, i guess people would become more humane and dignified. What if we just let people be and give them freedom not to conform with society’s expectations or church leaders expectations? Would we become kind and compassionate (because we are naturally good inside) or would we become rude and selfish (because we are naturally little evils inside). Or are there really two wolves leaving inside us; the good and the bad. And whichever we feed wins.  Or am I being like this because I feel like I am doing things to please other people. Or am I being like this because I am doing things to please myself, and not… not because I want to please God?