Thank you 2011

"We steadily grow into the likeness of that which we constantly love"

- Christian Larson

As we leave 2011 i shall count all the things i am grateful for that have touched my heart.

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I am truly grateful for the trees!


- Yes the trees! Because in them i see God. In them i feel hope and peace so calm. When i am angry i look at trees or when i miss talking to God, I look at trees- I look at trees all the time! They seem to know a lot of things. They go down through history. Some a thousand years old! take for example the Old Tjikko, a 9550 year old Norway Spruce, is the oldest known living individual clonal tree. yay! (Take a look at  wikipedia to see a list of the oldest trees.) And lastly because the trees know how to celebrate life. haha

I am grateful for my SFC family!


- For the bond we made and will be making. For knowing that i am not alone. And for being certain that we are all a work in progress. I am truly grateful for everysingle improvement that we make in our daily lives! I am excited to see how much we will improve by the end of 2012 already. In you i know that we are all learners in life, may God melt and mold us and fill us with His Holy Spirit so that we can build each other up. We will run the race together and we will pray for each other.

                               yay! I wish i can have a workstation at home as lovely as that! image

I am grateful for my work!


-  For my work reveals my weaknesses and my strength. I can see myself a whole lot better because i have work to do. And how i do it reveals my true character especially now that i am working telecommute in which i feel so blessed(Working at home is a privilege not available to many hehe ). It is indeed true that "The reward of our work is not what we get, but what we become."

I am grateful for my family and friends!

- Life would be meaningless without your family and friends! For what would be the reason for all your hard work if you cannot share your life with them? I am grateful that i have an understanding family. Because who can stand my whims and laziness? haha for all the second chances they gave and for not counting mistakes. I have the best family there is! I am also grateful for my friends! You are God's gift to me. I see beauty in you. We are friends because we resonate the same level of weirdness. hehe

I am grateful for those blogs i visit often because they inspire creativity and constancy:

Karenika.com - I think i have grown to love karen's blog without me knowing it. I love seeing Nathaniel and David grow. haha from having a tooth remove to seeing  a new smile. I love how karen documents her day with her family. And not to mention her layouts! I love how she's constantly doing what she loves.

http://blog.vanillerygarden.com/ - Natalie is oozing with creativity. Her drawings and stuffs are so cute. haha and her cats too! She's a free spirit! I love how honest and open her writing is! And i love the fact that she's in her 20's just like me.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheBathroomGirl - yay! For Cherry is on the top list of my "inspiring people". Her music and the work that she does. Her whole character is just inspiring. For inspiration, I advise you to go check her out.

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<-- And lastly i would like to take this opportunity to thank the person responsible for me having my own domain. haha. Cute2 you are! Ikaw na! :) Thank you so much cute for buying me my own domain and for the $1 thing. haha. You made my Christmas memorable with your gift. Thank you, thank you!

I wish you all the best in life! Carry healing, love, joy and encouragement as you go through life!

Always forever in gratitude,

tabulyo -

Blog Award

                                                

"You are special because you are you"

Yehey i got an award  for the first time evah! Thank you Chang! I dont know what you are suppose to feel when you get an award like this but it's an AWARD so i guess special. It says in here "Heart Locket Blog Award- Because Youre Special" I personally choose this coz ive got two awards even though i would have wanted the owl and the other one is a picture full of hearts. I'm grateful for my award. THank you chang you are so sweet to include me in your list of honorees. I know im suppose to like pass this on to wonderful bloggers but i dont think those people i follow read my blog. teheeeee! So im gonna keep this one for myself for now and then maybe find someone wonderful and special to pass this on. To continue the Legacy eh? I feel special. And so does my blog. Thank you thank you.

Things im grateful for today! Huray for gratitude lists! IM SO BACK!

1. Im grateful for me and my daddy's little plant.It's a Lemon plant! The one you use when you drink a lemonade. weee I actually saw it in a multi cab and got attracted with the big fruit it has. For a small plant to carry such big fruits is a peculiar sight for me. This one costs Php 200. and those with the big fruits were like a thousand pesos! Im actually waiting for the day it will bear fruits! Ah. And yes ive taken care of it, soiled it, watered it, talked to it, every single day for two days now.

       She is placed on our rooftop. Alone. I'm planning to make a garden for now lets be content with her.

Her view. Amazing. Agora baby!

2. Im grateful for me and my sister's white boards!

That's mine!

 

 And this one's for my sister :p Ya i know mine's like 1/10th the size of my sister's white board. 

I kow you wanna take a look.....

haha she's having her final exam for this semester. And she's counting it down! Lord God help her. Make her to study the things that will come out in the exam. In Jesus name! :p I love you Lord. hehe

3. Im grateful for my Rosary. Little Loncio actually tore it this morning and im a whole lot angry with him this morning. But im all well now. Get angry if you must but never hate.

 

I was actually attracted with the color that's why i bought it. Gotta start praying sheen!

4. Grateful for my books!

Notice the two bible :p that's mine and my sister. I bought it for her. I bought one also for my brother. I'm a book hoarder than a reader. I think i spend much time scouting for books than actually reading them!

I need to start reading. I know.

4. Im grateful for my brothers and sister. And for moments like these....

And lastly here's a treat for you. Im actually grateful for little loncio the mischievous one!

See him?

That's our Little Loncio on the left. Haha. 

Have a good day everyone!

Be. Live. More.

Wanting to be more is a dreadful feeling. It stretches you like a rubber bond. Life has been awfully stagnant for me and there is this constant desire to want more out of life. Like be more mature, be more caring, be more responsible, laugh more, enjoy life more, live more, serve more, be holy, be beautiful, be more like Jesus...and all the more's i could think of to be. I have gone out to search on how to resolve this. Like read self help books(ive read a lot!) - really you can learn from this but i tell you, all those ideas the authors gave will all the more stretch you to do this and do that. You have not even began your work and your already tired. That's what ideas can do. Small change i shall say. If you are not careful you will be fully loaded and will not even be able to understand yourself why you are not satisfied with what you do. You have set a standard for yourself without even conscious about it. Now not hitting those standards will make you feel dissatisfied. That's what reading ideas can do. It slowly creeps on your skin and then on your brain. Oh the things you read. I hope we can have some recycle bins in our minds so we can throw them out or better yet shift+delete(that's how to permanently delete a file folks! ) all the things we have downloaded in there. This is the reason why sometimes i don't get myself. Wanting to be more is a good thing but it hides under a cloud of doubts. If you don't have the sun to shine through it i tell you- you can get lost with the overwhelming sensation of doubts and doubts and doubts. As what St Paul says "I do not understand what I do. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.." We are all dealing here with oldest and the newest = Time.  Time is what you have but do not own and time as they say and i agree is precious. What you do with it will determine on who you will become.

To whoever or whatever the name of the force/forces(for they are too strong for me) maybe that brings about the stretch I am utterly grateful. For you bring out the true me and you bring out the "who" i decide to be.

If you are wondering what i have learned from all of this St Paul again can explain(isn't it wonderful to find out that saints do experience what we are going through?)

So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

and Amen! i say to that! Thank you  Lord for you are my hope. On you i shall i put my trust. My rock and my salvation. My Jesus Christ, my God and my Lord. Rule my life. - You know in the end all i want, all i really want is just to please you.

Dopie Slippers!

It's in the little things. You find joy and happiness! -me

And so my sister and I wanted to start the day right. And what better to do than go shopping? Yea i know. It just feels good to buy. It's time to buy slippers! And look at what we found.

Looks fun right?

We found them inside Save More Market. I dont know what they are called but their brand name is Dopie. Ya dope. I know the original is so much more expensive, like 1 original =10 dopie's. Are you kidding me? 
These one felt good and they are so comfy so all in all it's a good buy. yehey! hooray for good buys!

The black one is mine :)

Look at the little boy!

I bought one for mys sister, 1 for my mom, 1 for me and 1 extra. The extra one is supposed to be for my cousin but it did not fit her. Too bad. :( Im keeping it and ill be looking out for a lucky cinderella. yay!

The Book Of Everything

The Book About Everything is written by Guus Kuijer Nietherland's best known and best loved writers. In 2005 The Book of Everything won The Flemish Golden Owl Award and the Dutch Golden Pencil Award. This book was translated by JohnNieuwenhuizen.

Thomas sees things that no one else can see - like frogs wriggling through the letter box and tropical fish swimming in the canal. He sees angels cover their eyes and weep when his father hits his mother.

He writes everything down in his secret notebook, including his greatest hopes and darkest fears. Then an unlikely friendship leads Thomas to a startling revelation: that happiness begins with no longer being afraid.

 Fave Quotes:

"When i grow up, I am going to be happy" - Thomas
"Do you know how happiness begins? It begins with no longer being afraid." - Mrs Van Amersfoot
"A man who hits his wife dishonours himself."
"You are strong because you are kind" - Jesus to Thomas (Thomas talks to Jesus and gets a reply, i mean they chat for like real)

My take:
This book is about a boy named Thomas who wants to be happy. Thomas is on a family where his Father hits his Mother and where every time he does something wrong his father hits him with a wooden spoon. Its a very sad and touching book, when the hitting starts to begin he imagines it like rain pouring down and that he no longer exist. But this book is simply written and you will feel close to the characters it becomes beautiful then. I get to like some of the characters like Margot(i liked her at the end part of the book, what she did was surprising and brave) and Mrs Van Amersfoot the witch. I have seen a lot of families with the same situation, I can really relate with this book. Happy childhood is indeed important because it shapes you. It shapes who you become in the future. I wish no child should ever undergo this same kind of situation- seeing your own father hits your mother and being helpless about it. But for those who is now going through the same ordeal i wish that you like Thomas will find your own happiness, and it starts with no longer being afraid.

One fact: My mother gets to read this book too.(The book is too short, like 118 pages short) not that my mother reads only short books. Anyways, she said this relates to old generation family. This kind of Father belongs to some past. He sort of does not exist now, maybe we can have some but only a little for those who still do this kind of punishment. I kind of agree with my mom and maybe you will too when you get to know the character of the Father. He is very religious.


Oh i forgot to mention, there is a love story in this book. A very cute love story. The love story of Thomas and Eliza. hehe Im in the mood so im going to write Thomas love letter to her. Now that's a bonus for you. Here it is

 Dear Eliza,

Maybe you think you are not beautiful because you have a leather leg that creaks when you walk. Or because one of your hands has only a little finger and nothing else. But that is not true. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. I think that later you are going to live in a castle with a Rolls-Royce in the driveway. I do not write this because i want to go out with you, for you are already sixteen and I am only nine(nearly ten), so that is not possible. I write it because it is true.

O pure innocent love! aw.

Focus your thoughts on things that will make you happy

"But when Peter saw how strong the wind was he became frightened; and, beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, “O ye of little faith, why did you doubt?” -  Matthew 14: 31

See how peter started to sink when he lost focus. To my sink and swim see how fragile i am.

Because i have been so down and so demotivated(char) for like forever...hahah i have to get my mind off things even people that are not worthy of my attention. And for me to do that i need to focus on things that makes me happy. And what are those? hehe. The word Wish List is dancing in my head and in front of me. So here it is:

1. I want to make beautiful things. Cute beautiful things! Arghhh.

 

2. Doraemon. I want a doraemon stuff toy. Or anything that involves doraemon. I dont know why but it has become a symbol of unconditional love for me now. haha
3. A garden. Yes i want a garden for myself. I have no idea where to start or how to do this but i surely do want one. Oh please Lord please please give me a garden...hehehe
4. Wisdom and knowledge... Wisdom to read people's intentions and sincerity.
5. A sanctuary....i want to find my place. My spot to think things through and through. Someplace to pray and talk to God. hehehe Whether up in a tree or under a tree. haha It wont mater as long as im in a place over looking the vast ocean. Someplace to take my imagination somewhere, someplace comforting and familiar. Hahaizt...

I wish now to move on and do my part of the job. To let the records reflect that today and for tomorrow i did my part of the job. And just like what Elizabeth Gilbert says...whether or not the genius comes Ole, to me nonetheless. Yes- Ole, to me nonetheless!

Im more happy being grateful

 Yet, even now i know;

The Lord will work wonders for me 

and it will infinitely surpass my boundless desires

 -from little flower adopted by little flock a.ka. tabulyo

And because for the past three months i have been so busy being tired after every shift(night shift is such an energy sucker) There are a lot of things ive missed and failed to consistently do! First and foremost is of course my daily gratitude list! Ive noticed i am unpleasant when i forget to do this. Somehow something is missing. And that i am more fearful and so much more reserved. ahahaha wanna feel like living in a cave?... and secondly i have forgotten to do my water color weekly project- This is something that i really want to pursue. So without much further a do here are the things im grateful for today.

I am grateful for our Media Negotiation Training and Workshop. The passion these people have  with their work is admirable-i hope it will rub off of me. hehehe. I am thankful that they actually thought of sharing their knowledge to us. I am in awe of how knowledgeable and generous these people are. And somehow in the depths of me i am glad i am a part of them.

I am grateful for all the internal trials i have been experiencing. I know its hard and heavy inside but i am thankful and full of gratitude for these trials. Because in them i know that God is at work in me. So now i will let go and stop worrying about it. I will abandon myself to God and let him do what he wants to accomplish in me. As what St Therese says “You do not need to know what the good Lord is doing in you; you are too little.”. I will be content with that.

I am grateful for my friends. They are my happiness. A part that makes life a whole lot more beautiful.

I am grateful for Eva and Sheila- you two are God's instrument. Thank you.

I am grateful for Ate Nessa and Lovely and for Ave too- nothing beats old friends.
NOw im missing the 7 dwarfs.

I am grateful for kenny and chang2 and cute and mimai, glaiza, bernie, jeah, jessie and kuya jones too.

I am grateful for my life for what i express and for who i am.

I am grateful for my God and for his love that knows no fear. May i learn to love that way.

Im grateful for the story ive read about a girl who is so shy that even saying hello to other people took a lot of courage. Now she is a successful businesswoman because somehow she said she has been so accustomed to using her courage often that in time of great need for it it has somehow seen her through.- i cried while reading her story. The little girl in me who has been in great pain has been touched.

I pray for healing and for acceptance. For peace and for learning to live it.