Thank you 2011

"We steadily grow into the likeness of that which we constantly love"

- Christian Larson

As we leave 2011 i shall count all the things i am grateful for that have touched my heart.

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I am truly grateful for the trees!


- Yes the trees! Because in them i see God. In them i feel hope and peace so calm. When i am angry i look at trees or when i miss talking to God, I look at trees- I look at trees all the time! They seem to know a lot of things. They go down through history. Some a thousand years old! take for example the Old Tjikko, a 9550 year old Norway Spruce, is the oldest known living individual clonal tree. yay! (Take a look at  wikipedia to see a list of the oldest trees.) And lastly because the trees know how to celebrate life. haha

I am grateful for my SFC family!


- For the bond we made and will be making. For knowing that i am not alone. And for being certain that we are all a work in progress. I am truly grateful for everysingle improvement that we make in our daily lives! I am excited to see how much we will improve by the end of 2012 already. In you i know that we are all learners in life, may God melt and mold us and fill us with His Holy Spirit so that we can build each other up. We will run the race together and we will pray for each other.

                               yay! I wish i can have a workstation at home as lovely as that! image

I am grateful for my work!


-  For my work reveals my weaknesses and my strength. I can see myself a whole lot better because i have work to do. And how i do it reveals my true character especially now that i am working telecommute in which i feel so blessed(Working at home is a privilege not available to many hehe ). It is indeed true that "The reward of our work is not what we get, but what we become."

I am grateful for my family and friends!

- Life would be meaningless without your family and friends! For what would be the reason for all your hard work if you cannot share your life with them? I am grateful that i have an understanding family. Because who can stand my whims and laziness? haha for all the second chances they gave and for not counting mistakes. I have the best family there is! I am also grateful for my friends! You are God's gift to me. I see beauty in you. We are friends because we resonate the same level of weirdness. hehe

I am grateful for those blogs i visit often because they inspire creativity and constancy:

Karenika.com - I think i have grown to love karen's blog without me knowing it. I love seeing Nathaniel and David grow. haha from having a tooth remove to seeing  a new smile. I love how karen documents her day with her family. And not to mention her layouts! I love how she's constantly doing what she loves.

http://blog.vanillerygarden.com/ - Natalie is oozing with creativity. Her drawings and stuffs are so cute. haha and her cats too! She's a free spirit! I love how honest and open her writing is! And i love the fact that she's in her 20's just like me.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TheBathroomGirl - yay! For Cherry is on the top list of my "inspiring people". Her music and the work that she does. Her whole character is just inspiring. For inspiration, I advise you to go check her out.

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<-- And lastly i would like to take this opportunity to thank the person responsible for me having my own domain. haha. Cute2 you are! Ikaw na! :) Thank you so much cute for buying me my own domain and for the $1 thing. haha. You made my Christmas memorable with your gift. Thank you, thank you!

I wish you all the best in life! Carry healing, love, joy and encouragement as you go through life!

Always forever in gratitude,

tabulyo -

Blog Award

                                                

"You are special because you are you"

Yehey i got an award  for the first time evah! Thank you Chang! I dont know what you are suppose to feel when you get an award like this but it's an AWARD so i guess special. It says in here "Heart Locket Blog Award- Because Youre Special" I personally choose this coz ive got two awards even though i would have wanted the owl and the other one is a picture full of hearts. I'm grateful for my award. THank you chang you are so sweet to include me in your list of honorees. I know im suppose to like pass this on to wonderful bloggers but i dont think those people i follow read my blog. teheeeee! So im gonna keep this one for myself for now and then maybe find someone wonderful and special to pass this on. To continue the Legacy eh? I feel special. And so does my blog. Thank you thank you.

Things im grateful for today! Huray for gratitude lists! IM SO BACK!

1. Im grateful for me and my daddy's little plant.It's a Lemon plant! The one you use when you drink a lemonade. weee I actually saw it in a multi cab and got attracted with the big fruit it has. For a small plant to carry such big fruits is a peculiar sight for me. This one costs Php 200. and those with the big fruits were like a thousand pesos! Im actually waiting for the day it will bear fruits! Ah. And yes ive taken care of it, soiled it, watered it, talked to it, every single day for two days now.

       She is placed on our rooftop. Alone. I'm planning to make a garden for now lets be content with her.

Her view. Amazing. Agora baby!

2. Im grateful for me and my sister's white boards!

That's mine!

 

 And this one's for my sister :p Ya i know mine's like 1/10th the size of my sister's white board. 

I kow you wanna take a look.....

haha she's having her final exam for this semester. And she's counting it down! Lord God help her. Make her to study the things that will come out in the exam. In Jesus name! :p I love you Lord. hehe

3. Im grateful for my Rosary. Little Loncio actually tore it this morning and im a whole lot angry with him this morning. But im all well now. Get angry if you must but never hate.

 

I was actually attracted with the color that's why i bought it. Gotta start praying sheen!

4. Grateful for my books!

Notice the two bible :p that's mine and my sister. I bought it for her. I bought one also for my brother. I'm a book hoarder than a reader. I think i spend much time scouting for books than actually reading them!

I need to start reading. I know.

4. Im grateful for my brothers and sister. And for moments like these....

And lastly here's a treat for you. Im actually grateful for little loncio the mischievous one!

See him?

That's our Little Loncio on the left. Haha. 

Have a good day everyone!

Be. Live. More.

Wanting to be more is a dreadful feeling. It stretches you like a rubber bond. Life has been awfully stagnant for me and there is this constant desire to want more out of life. Like be more mature, be more caring, be more responsible, laugh more, enjoy life more, live more, serve more, be holy, be beautiful, be more like Jesus...and all the more's i could think of to be. I have gone out to search on how to resolve this. Like read self help books(ive read a lot!) - really you can learn from this but i tell you, all those ideas the authors gave will all the more stretch you to do this and do that. You have not even began your work and your already tired. That's what ideas can do. Small change i shall say. If you are not careful you will be fully loaded and will not even be able to understand yourself why you are not satisfied with what you do. You have set a standard for yourself without even conscious about it. Now not hitting those standards will make you feel dissatisfied. That's what reading ideas can do. It slowly creeps on your skin and then on your brain. Oh the things you read. I hope we can have some recycle bins in our minds so we can throw them out or better yet shift+delete(that's how to permanently delete a file folks! ) all the things we have downloaded in there. This is the reason why sometimes i don't get myself. Wanting to be more is a good thing but it hides under a cloud of doubts. If you don't have the sun to shine through it i tell you- you can get lost with the overwhelming sensation of doubts and doubts and doubts. As what St Paul says "I do not understand what I do. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.." We are all dealing here with oldest and the newest = Time.  Time is what you have but do not own and time as they say and i agree is precious. What you do with it will determine on who you will become.

To whoever or whatever the name of the force/forces(for they are too strong for me) maybe that brings about the stretch I am utterly grateful. For you bring out the true me and you bring out the "who" i decide to be.

If you are wondering what i have learned from all of this St Paul again can explain(isn't it wonderful to find out that saints do experience what we are going through?)

So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!

and Amen! i say to that! Thank you  Lord for you are my hope. On you i shall i put my trust. My rock and my salvation. My Jesus Christ, my God and my Lord. Rule my life. - You know in the end all i want, all i really want is just to please you.

Dopie Slippers!

It's in the little things. You find joy and happiness! -me

And so my sister and I wanted to start the day right. And what better to do than go shopping? Yea i know. It just feels good to buy. It's time to buy slippers! And look at what we found.

Looks fun right?

We found them inside Save More Market. I dont know what they are called but their brand name is Dopie. Ya dope. I know the original is so much more expensive, like 1 original =10 dopie's. Are you kidding me? 
These one felt good and they are so comfy so all in all it's a good buy. yehey! hooray for good buys!

The black one is mine :)

Look at the little boy!

I bought one for mys sister, 1 for my mom, 1 for me and 1 extra. The extra one is supposed to be for my cousin but it did not fit her. Too bad. :( Im keeping it and ill be looking out for a lucky cinderella. yay!

The Book Of Everything

The Book About Everything is written by Guus Kuijer Nietherland's best known and best loved writers. In 2005 The Book of Everything won The Flemish Golden Owl Award and the Dutch Golden Pencil Award. This book was translated by JohnNieuwenhuizen.

Thomas sees things that no one else can see - like frogs wriggling through the letter box and tropical fish swimming in the canal. He sees angels cover their eyes and weep when his father hits his mother.

He writes everything down in his secret notebook, including his greatest hopes and darkest fears. Then an unlikely friendship leads Thomas to a startling revelation: that happiness begins with no longer being afraid.

 Fave Quotes:

"When i grow up, I am going to be happy" - Thomas
"Do you know how happiness begins? It begins with no longer being afraid." - Mrs Van Amersfoot
"A man who hits his wife dishonours himself."
"You are strong because you are kind" - Jesus to Thomas (Thomas talks to Jesus and gets a reply, i mean they chat for like real)

My take:
This book is about a boy named Thomas who wants to be happy. Thomas is on a family where his Father hits his Mother and where every time he does something wrong his father hits him with a wooden spoon. Its a very sad and touching book, when the hitting starts to begin he imagines it like rain pouring down and that he no longer exist. But this book is simply written and you will feel close to the characters it becomes beautiful then. I get to like some of the characters like Margot(i liked her at the end part of the book, what she did was surprising and brave) and Mrs Van Amersfoot the witch. I have seen a lot of families with the same situation, I can really relate with this book. Happy childhood is indeed important because it shapes you. It shapes who you become in the future. I wish no child should ever undergo this same kind of situation- seeing your own father hits your mother and being helpless about it. But for those who is now going through the same ordeal i wish that you like Thomas will find your own happiness, and it starts with no longer being afraid.

One fact: My mother gets to read this book too.(The book is too short, like 118 pages short) not that my mother reads only short books. Anyways, she said this relates to old generation family. This kind of Father belongs to some past. He sort of does not exist now, maybe we can have some but only a little for those who still do this kind of punishment. I kind of agree with my mom and maybe you will too when you get to know the character of the Father. He is very religious.


Oh i forgot to mention, there is a love story in this book. A very cute love story. The love story of Thomas and Eliza. hehe Im in the mood so im going to write Thomas love letter to her. Now that's a bonus for you. Here it is

 Dear Eliza,

Maybe you think you are not beautiful because you have a leather leg that creaks when you walk. Or because one of your hands has only a little finger and nothing else. But that is not true. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. I think that later you are going to live in a castle with a Rolls-Royce in the driveway. I do not write this because i want to go out with you, for you are already sixteen and I am only nine(nearly ten), so that is not possible. I write it because it is true.

O pure innocent love! aw.

Focus your thoughts on things that will make you happy

"But when Peter saw how strong the wind was he became frightened; and, beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, “O ye of little faith, why did you doubt?” -  Matthew 14: 31

See how peter started to sink when he lost focus. To my sink and swim see how fragile i am.

Because i have been so down and so demotivated(char) for like forever...hahah i have to get my mind off things even people that are not worthy of my attention. And for me to do that i need to focus on things that makes me happy. And what are those? hehe. The word Wish List is dancing in my head and in front of me. So here it is:

1. I want to make beautiful things. Cute beautiful things! Arghhh.

 

2. Doraemon. I want a doraemon stuff toy. Or anything that involves doraemon. I dont know why but it has become a symbol of unconditional love for me now. haha
3. A garden. Yes i want a garden for myself. I have no idea where to start or how to do this but i surely do want one. Oh please Lord please please give me a garden...hehehe
4. Wisdom and knowledge... Wisdom to read people's intentions and sincerity.
5. A sanctuary....i want to find my place. My spot to think things through and through. Someplace to pray and talk to God. hehehe Whether up in a tree or under a tree. haha It wont mater as long as im in a place over looking the vast ocean. Someplace to take my imagination somewhere, someplace comforting and familiar. Hahaizt...

I wish now to move on and do my part of the job. To let the records reflect that today and for tomorrow i did my part of the job. And just like what Elizabeth Gilbert says...whether or not the genius comes Ole, to me nonetheless. Yes- Ole, to me nonetheless!

Im more happy being grateful

 Yet, even now i know;

The Lord will work wonders for me 

and it will infinitely surpass my boundless desires

 -from little flower adopted by little flock a.ka. tabulyo

And because for the past three months i have been so busy being tired after every shift(night shift is such an energy sucker) There are a lot of things ive missed and failed to consistently do! First and foremost is of course my daily gratitude list! Ive noticed i am unpleasant when i forget to do this. Somehow something is missing. And that i am more fearful and so much more reserved. ahahaha wanna feel like living in a cave?... and secondly i have forgotten to do my water color weekly project- This is something that i really want to pursue. So without much further a do here are the things im grateful for today.

I am grateful for our Media Negotiation Training and Workshop. The passion these people have  with their work is admirable-i hope it will rub off of me. hehehe. I am thankful that they actually thought of sharing their knowledge to us. I am in awe of how knowledgeable and generous these people are. And somehow in the depths of me i am glad i am a part of them.

I am grateful for all the internal trials i have been experiencing. I know its hard and heavy inside but i am thankful and full of gratitude for these trials. Because in them i know that God is at work in me. So now i will let go and stop worrying about it. I will abandon myself to God and let him do what he wants to accomplish in me. As what St Therese says “You do not need to know what the good Lord is doing in you; you are too little.”. I will be content with that.

I am grateful for my friends. They are my happiness. A part that makes life a whole lot more beautiful.

I am grateful for Eva and Sheila- you two are God's instrument. Thank you.

I am grateful for Ate Nessa and Lovely and for Ave too- nothing beats old friends.
NOw im missing the 7 dwarfs.

I am grateful for kenny and chang2 and cute and mimai, glaiza, bernie, jeah, jessie and kuya jones too.

I am grateful for my life for what i express and for who i am.

I am grateful for my God and for his love that knows no fear. May i learn to love that way.

Im grateful for the story ive read about a girl who is so shy that even saying hello to other people took a lot of courage. Now she is a successful businesswoman because somehow she said she has been so accustomed to using her courage often that in time of great need for it it has somehow seen her through.- i cried while reading her story. The little girl in me who has been in great pain has been touched.

I pray for healing and for acceptance. For peace and for learning to live it.

Things ive pondered as true

"Life is a series of lessons and opportunites,

not a series of mistakes and inadequacies."

Image from here

Today is a list of all the things I’ve pondered as true (proven or not) or at least thought to be true for me and also a list of my current activities, and a mixture of both. So let's start!

1.       Singing is just like playing games! Just like skipping ropes! Timing and fearlessness is required and the courage and abandonment to try it because you want to play. - Things ive pondered while learning to sing.

Why if my country was not dubbed as the singing nation of Asia I wouldn't have cared less if I’m so out of tune. All my colleagues know how to sing really well. Everybody I know of seems to know how to sing! It’s like 1 out of 10 and I’m that 1. Not that I’m frustrated or something. lol. Seriously.

2.      English can be fun. Respect.

Discretion is synonymous to prudence - it made me respect that word more!

It is fun looking for the synonyms of the word than looking its meaning up. Either way you arrive at something true. I suggest take the more pleasurable path! Because that is what learning is all about. PLEASURABLE!

I wish I had discovered this way back in high school, to look for synonyms rather than its meaning. Because somehow it’s more fun that way. Meanings can be burdensome you know.

Like divulge is reveal, but divulge sounds so much more manly to me! I love how it sounds!

Like how interference is like meddling and prying (sounds like gossip to me), but I’m more into the electronics side so I’d like to imagine interference for a channel (tv or radio) that has been distracted by outer factors. Sort of the static voice for the radio and a sudden black or white disturbance for the tv. -Oh how playful words can be!

3.       That it is okay to get angry but don't sin. To acknowledge your feelings yet not do something that will lead you to sin. That gentleness and faithfulness is the fruit of the Holy Spirit and 7 more others. That I’m not trying to be spiritual here. That the best thing you can do with your life is to ask for the gift of the Holy Spirit which will teach you all truths.

4.      And lastly and more importantly this one: That Christ searches not for malice but for ignorance and screams out not in pain but in forgiveness. –I’ve read that in a book. It is true. The kind of truth that will pierce your heart and mind. Can you do that? To not search for malice but rather for ignorance to someone who have wronged you? What a profound idea this is!

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Things I’m grateful for today

1. For being able to remember Enola's request! Thank you Abba-cakes!

2. I’m happy today. And I am grateful!

An entry from my gratitude journal:

Thank you Lord for this wonderful morning: thank you for the birds in our backyard, for our mango fruit. for our chickens and for my brothers and sister and for my cousin Reyna. Thank you Lord for my parents, and for our house. Thank you for the healing in the morning and for the grace that comes with it. Thank you for your unfathomable mercy and for your humor. Thank you so much Lord God. You are wonderful to me.

One Small Step at a Time

                                                 Thats really cute! u go chic! or is it a duck?
 

One small step at a time. That would be my motto for this month. hehe i know its a little late being halfway through with the days of June but still small change adds up right? Right. :D There are a lot of things i wanna say right away- right this very moment, but words if they can travel fast especially English can get congested right trough my neck. hahaha. So i will remember my one small step...first off i wanna say thanks. :D Okay lets get this numbered.

1. Thank you to all my new lovely followers. hehe i never thought i can be this interesting. haha. Thank you to  Jen (i was really shocked and surprised to see you here in my blog. It cant be but that hair of yours is unmistakable :) ) to Mengenai my nose is bleeding while reading your blog. hahaha, to Solelyshe thanks ill visit ur blog soon! and lastly to Stephanie salamat i followed you back! Thanks it is a treat to see all of you dropping by. hehe.

2. I am thankful for the Gift of acceptance. Life is not easy sometimes especially people. They can really get into your nerves. But as they say Light is the only way to dispel darkness and love is the only way to dispel hatred. And love for me at this moment of my life now has taken a new form in the word of ACCEPTANCE. I think Love is a gate and Acceptance is the key. And if you get to open it, you'll have heaven on earth. hehe i think that is some kind of prudent of me to think that. hahaha. YOull never really know what you can come up with with a keyboard and a monitor(A new way to ponder things! ). :p

3. I am grateful that i finally made it to my dentist! hahaha. Got my tooth pulled out. I can still feel the effects of anesthesia in my mouth. Im grateful for my Ate king and Otingkay for coming with me. You guys are the best!

4. Grateful for the spaghetti chachuchang brought! I was so hungry last night! THanks chang gpakaon jd ko nimo literally! Ur like my big sister! hahaha thank you for taking charge every time i get so bataot. :D. Belated.

5. Im grateful for dai Eva! Dai Eva my sister in Christ. Hehehe you are God's instrument. God's hope and God's messenger. Thank you dai for letting me bother you every time i am bothered. hahaha

6. Bought two books! hahaha I think i am now officially more of a book hoarder than a reader. WHat to do? One small Step At a Time.

7. And lastly i am grateful for doing this. Writing down all the things im grateful for today. Life is good. :p

And my one small step, my one small change for this June is to smile. That's it. To SMILE :D

P.S. Im super grateful for twitter. Work would be a little boring without it.

Martha Graham

Today May 11, 2011, Google features Martha Graham's 117th birthday with an animation by Ryan Woodward. I was very much fascinated by it. I thought it was some kind of a ninja moves. You know the Naruto kind of way. But no, it was Martha Graham. A dancer as ive found out. And if not for google i would have not read this text from her The Life and Work of Martha Graham writing. Come read along with me this precious text. And let us all learn something from it. This is especially to those who feel they have an artist inside of them. hehe

There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. ... No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others."

source from wikipedia .

 What more can i say? Beautiful isnt it? To life, beauty and art!

Camiguin Island (Holy Week)

Went to Camiguin Island for Holy Week. A three and a half day vacation! yay. Ive got lots and lots of pictures. But because this is the one i miss most during my childhood days i will post this first....

 

Yes i went sailing. Together with my two cousins and my lil bro. By the looks of it, from where i am sitting i am the driver.  :D

Hahahah.I love these three!

We want to go to Matangad. Location of The famous horse. Local stories has it that there was this pantion(i have no idea whats the english word for this) of gold in that place. That one of my relatives(i dont know his name) spotted it but he had no idea how to get the pantion of gold out of the water. So he just keeps on coming everyday and looking at the pantion. One day locals saw this very big boat anchored on that place. A rather unusual site. When my relative returned to look at it again it was already gone. (too bad, that's what u get for being selfish. hehehe)The boat was rumored to be owned by the Rodriguez family. Who owns a helicopter, boats and barges and even a private airport. They are indeed wealthy but not that influential because as i and all of us camiguinons know, Camiguin is controlled and sort of owned by the Romualdo's. Well anyway.  Lets not talk about that here. hehehe

 Ah. Matangad is on the other side of that bend there.

We are getting closer...

 And closer...

yay. look at that!

And that....

And ooopss...water pollution.

And were here....

 I dont know if you can spot it. But that's him on the center. The famous horse.(it does looks like a horse on sideview). We did not come closer coz its a little bit awry and dangerous. yay. Those stones are huge and the place is so quiet. Arent we brave? :p

Little brother caught a fish while we were returning home....

    Hahaha its so small! But look at how proud he is! hahhaha oh happy day!

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Watercolor week7

THis is like watercolor and everything in between. So lets start!

Because we went to Guadalupe and most of the place has something that looks like this. And when i saw it i put a mental note to remember so i will be able to draw it. NOw Im trying to draw something from my imagination. And this is my first attempt. All of my painting here has a model.

Im using 3 brushes at a time. I find it funny hahahaha.

Now when i get to the water part(the river) I have no idea how to move on. And someone so cute and naughty is bothering my art in progress...

He has a masking tape on his face! I dont know what got on his head. Oh Kids!

That's Argel but we call him Loncio. I think when i do something like this i tend to attract attention in the house coz they want to have a part on it too. You know. Heres my brother. Showing me how to do the water part.

He is so dirty and with no shirt on because he was trying to cook chicken for us. I love my little brother. Here's what he has done....

Oh dear i dont know if i like that at all! Its a river not a sea! It is suppose to be crystal clear. hahahahaa. Well anyways lets continue...

So the place in my memory looks something like this...

hehehe not bad. hahahaha. And just because i tend to gravitate people when i do this and somehow bring out the artistic part in them. My brother's best friend, his name is Henelia, says he wants to try it too. SO i let him...

And viola!

This is what he did. Yay.Very nice. I now do believe that what you paint is a reflection of you. Look at that! Henelia is bold and fearless. And somehow the painting reflects him. Agree? :p

Okay see you next week! :p

Daily Gratitude.===========================================================

P.S. I have a lot of things to be grateful for and let me tell you one of those incident which topped the list. I was again caught by my manager sleeping while on work. She kind of woke me up and i was so surprised that i shouted just a little bit. I was so embarrassed that i went laughing uncontrollably. I cannot stop nor contain myself. I just went on laughing with her watching with a look of confusion on her face. hehehe i love my manager. hahahaha
2. God must have been delighting himself on me that i get to laugh even on the smallest things lately. And i am ever so grateful. Thank you Lord. Abba-cakes salamat. :p
3. God forgives. And i am grateful for his immeasurable mercy. It covers the whole world.
4. For Mimai's fruit salad.

Smile that heals

 "Peace begins with a smile."

-Mother Teresa

Just before i head back to sleep i just wanna list the things im grateful for today and maybe talk a little about what im going through. Confess i guess. Here we go. I have been so harassed this past few days. Just to let you know harass is the word we use when being tempted by the devil by my SFC family. (strong word eh?)  Yes i have been so angry at everyone and myself without really any reason at all. Just being angry and stubborn. gah i dont really have any idea what's going on. I cant even control my emotions. For a moment i thought i wanna be selfish, i wanna go wild, stop caring, forget everything. Something like that. Its really heavy to carry when you are at that state. It is painful coz sometimes you hurt people with you knowing, which is even more painful. But then i go back and look at those pictures of people who inspire me. And i notice all those people have got beautiful smiles. I thought to my self. They are so beautiful because they are at peace with themselves. When i look at them i see kindness. arggghhhh The beauty of a kind heart. It shines and heals. It reads you and says to you i know your wounds. I remembered i read about a story of St. Therese of Lisieux and of how she was healed by her sickness. In her diary she said she saw Mama Mary smiling at her and then she was suddenly cured. It must have been a smile of kindness. The kind of smile that only kind people can produce and show and there is no way of faking it. No wonder St. Therese was healed by Our Lady's ravishing smile. Because when i see people who has got those smile it does something with my soul. A kind smile can certainly heal.


Things im grateful for today

1. Went swimming with my mom, sister and cousin at Pryce Hotel. I was so happy and giggling when i hit the water. Ah. I miss swimming. I used to swim every single day way back then in Camiguin Island. Ah those memories.
2. Grateful for Mimai's efficacent oil.
3. I am grateful that after days of being angry i am now slowly healing. Last night i just laughed and laughed at myself and it did me and my soul a whole lot of good. Smile beautiful soul. Thank you. Holy Spirit thank you.
4. Read my gratitude journal again. I miss writing on my notebook. It is so much more personal than what i have here online. So considering the thought of going back to it again than here.
5. I sleep a whole bunch last night. :P hehehe. Sleep can do your soul whole lot of good too. So if you are tired and you cant understand yourself, sometimes you just have to sleep it off.

Cute dogs!

When you dont really know what to write and where to start writing all you've got to do is to write. Right? So let us begin. My brain is currently processing what subject to post when suddenly my cousin asked me if ive seen the pictures she uploaded, and i said no. For a moment there(a second i think) i was debating with myself whether to check it out or not. My brain concluded that it was better to let myself interrupted. So i did check it out. And Here's what ive found...

That's Mac-mac a.k.a. The King/Father. Aint he handsome?

And this one is Cheke the Mother...

When Cheke had her first pregnancy she got.

Choy-choy The Prince...

Chay-chay the Princess

Chay-chay on the left side, and that's her friend. I dont know her/his name. But she's cute!
And of course Mac-mac and Cheke got Barny but he got lost and was never found again and they also got our very own Ruffy!

 Ruffy is on the left side. hehehe just in case u got confused. :p and that is me on the right.
And after just a month or two Checke got pregnant again! wew. Mac-mac is hardworking u know.

That one my dear is Chelsea. The cutest ever! arggghh.

And this one on the sand is Buddy! hehehe.

They have other siblings too but were already given to people who were lucky enough to be promised when Cheke was just pregnant to have it once they came out. yay. And just to let you know right now my cousin has got 7 dogs in their house. hehehe that's a lot!

Things im grateful for today April 5 2011
1. I am grateful that finally i am able to bring back myself to post on my blog. yay.
2. I am grateful that i survived my first day on working on the night shift schedule. yay from 10pm-6 am. Although my manager did caught me sleeping at the last minute! It was during 5:30 am i think. wew. Yours truly was so groggy and sleepy i wasn't able to detect her coming. hahaha but she said it was understandable so it's okay i think.
3.I am grateful that i was able to sleep soundly after my work. So i think i have to go back to sleep now just to be better prepared later. To graveyard shifts! Thank you Father. :p Abba-cakes thank you. So Much.
4. I am ever so grateful that my blog have got new beautiful followers. To  Marikoy, Darkratus, Juliet, Angelina zt and Brian thank you. May you increase more in numbers! hehehe